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I GOT AN STYLOPHONE!! It is actually wonderful. I love it haha been annoying the family with it too :D I can half successfully play Yankee Doodle & Silent Night. I'm on the look out to the stylophone music to 'Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas' so if anyone knows where I can find it that would be awesome:D

So today I was all ill so I had to come home and the women who my mother is cleaning for is moving to New Zealand (lucky!) and she's been cleaning out some old things and has given my mother a bag full of things that we can have and I got a mirrored box with lots of jewellery and a manicure set & the stylophone and she sent drawing books and a lizard statue for my brother so it's like a mini Christmas ahh and has totally made my day since I've been off all icky :(

                
Well I'm off for a bath and to relax. :D Xxx

^,^

I have the biggest smile on my face :D Spent a very lovely two hours with this guy that I like it was nice just to be the two of us <3 

It finally feels like Christmas and things seem to be on the up with my parents. My day's been rather productive too look:

 managed to sort out my make up. Need to make the mother a cup of tea and then crack on with my room :D
Life is looking rather good Xxx

For My Redhead Family

Hey umm I've heard some pretty bad news today. That my best friend's mother who hasn't been very well had to be rushed into hospital with suspected meningitis. Emily's been like a second mother to me, she's always been there for me in times where my mother couldn't. She's been so amazing and she's helped me the deal with my parents divorce. I respect her and love her with all my little heart. She really is wonderful. So I just wanted to say that I hope she gets better and that I'm thinking of her.

Another wonderful person is her daughter Heather. Emily's condition has proved difficult at times and Heather is one of the most fantastic people I know and I really don't say it enough. She's been brave and supportive and it's amazing how she's managed to balance her GCSEs and worries with those of her mother and her (way too) emotional best friend. This is just a little something to say my thoughts are with them, they are two beautiful people and ARE family to me. I love you both guys and I hope the end of the storm comes soon. Everything will be okay, I'll make sure of it xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I love you Xx

Love

Love is a difficult and twisted thing. I don't want a relationship like my parents. Years of ignoring and secretly hating each other. Evil. I know that love can be difficult and to those who find it I congratulate you. I've grown up knowing nothing but insults and hatred, I grew up seeing love like it was in the movies; hoping that's what love was really like. Now i'm fifteen and my parents have finally admitted they don't love each other anymore; well my mother doesn't love my father. They were disfunctional but they slotted together. They were perfect for each other; a while ago. 

Today I have discovered my mother's been having an affair since August(roughly) and that the guy she was with has moved to spain and they're still in touch. I think this may have been the reason she decided to leave my father. I feel like I've been stabbed or slapped across the face. To think of my mother with someone else it sickens me. I know in the long run she'd find someone else but to know that everyday for the last four months she's been with him; happy and then she's come home and she's angry and upset with us all. If she loved him that much I'd have rather she went to spain with him. 

I don't care about her excuses. She's my mother I feel betrayed that she didn't tell me and I had to read her diary to find it out. Urgh.

updating :D

my internet is back :D
god i've missed refreshing devaintART over and over :D & I've picked my prom dress!!! I can't tell you wat it looks like because it's a secret but ahhmygawd it's beautiful!!!

& HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS ahh it was amazing!! so excited for the last one, going to cry so much + i may be seeing it again with someone sepcial (a)


Mocks this week though :( 
Ahh well just gives me a reason to celebrate afterward + christmas soon ahh :D Xxx

Broken Keyboard

So as you've probably guessed my laptop keyboard is messed up haha two keys are missing, my 'e' key is extremely sensitive for some reason but anyway tomorrow I chose my prom dress & I'm really unsure about which one, I narrowed it down to two an aquamarine one, which is gorgeous, and a bottle green which is stunning but I'm unsure because of the colour, I never imagined myself wearing green to prom hmm. 
Doing my maths GCSE has lifted a huge weight because to be honest maths is what I was most worried about and I'm pretty confident I've got at least a C but I don't want to jinks it haha

Anyways I hadn't posted anything for a while so a quick update 

IT IS FOUR DAYS UNTIL HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 1
AHH!!!!!D: :D 

It's one o'clock in the morning and I'm doing my english coursework which is in tomorrow and it's things like this that me glad that my mother doesn't see this :) anyways so yeah i'm watching lee mack on Dave and editing a new ID for deviantART so it's all good :)

Xxx

2am

Hello Campers :D I'm gonna be more cheery from now on :) So here I am at 2am the night before my maths exam wondering, worrying and general complaining about my life haha but there's always someone worse of so I'm not complaining. Not updated a Facebook status in 2 DAYS :D  I'm so proud of myself. It's like an achievement for me but my twitter status rate has doubled to make up for the loss of fb ones. It's like a recovering crack addict settling their cravings with heroinne. Not gonna work. 

Oh & I now have my Harry Potter 7 Pt.1 cinema ticket displayed proudly on my corkboard after a crazy two hour hunt for it :( I was in full panic mode and cryed a little when I thought I couldn't find it :/
But it's found and safe & also a guy I kinda like asked me to go see Harry Potter with him aswell so I'm on a high...well highish ya know i gotta exam in like 8 hours oh and that guy listed me as his "sister" on facebook he's really not getting it ^^ haha Goodnight/morning :D xx

Pride of Britain & Falling out of love at last

The pride of britain is so moving and it's incredible to see bravery and courage in Britain instead of being branded obese piss heads :) Beautiful people doing wonderful things :D

                                                  &                                                               

Today I've learnt that the boy I've liked for almost four years is going to sixth form instead of a college, this kinda put things into perspective for me, myself and Danielle are the only ones going to the local college and I know this won't stop me being friends with people but I think I may begin to drift away from people. But I think he will be the one I'll loose touch with first, we're close, we get on well but the fact I won't see him often will help me accept nothing was going to happen & besides I'll probably have my eye on another guy as soon as I step into the class room :)
But what I'm trying to say is, I've lost some feelings for him, knowing that this is our last year together and nothing's going to happen anyway :)

I'm gonna miss him and it's gonna be hard to fully let him go and not feel regret but I'll try haha :D

Enter Creative Title Here

Hello again,
  So it's quarter to one and I'm bored again as usual and today I had the 1st paper of my maths GCSE. How'd it go? meh but I'm confident I got at least a C as the pass mark was 29!! :O 
 Anyways more news, my older isister Kim is openning a tattoo parlour with her boyfriend which I think is amazing!! & my dad's said he wants to get a tattoo so I'm thinking of designing one for him. What? I hear you cry, well to be quick i was thinking of something along the lines of the three feathers but he has four children and feathers may be a little bit to feminine so i dunno huh :P 
 I have no idea haha but I'm willing to give anything a go once hehe I'm so excited (: If i could learn I would adore training to be a tattoo artist :D ahh!! :D 

Anyways it's ten to one so i'm just gonna do my physics homework and go to sleep Goodnight everyone Xx

deviantART

Goodmorning people of earth :) So I have a maths GCSE later on which sucks & I also have the dentist afterschool which also sucks too :( 
So for those who have not noticed I have a deviantART account :CLICK HERE!!!
I would love it of you could check it out and give me some of your opinions of my work that would me AWESOME :D ^^

 So this is kinda the thing you'll find there :) Along with some writing, which I'd also love to hear your thoughts on. Loves Xx

I feel like an idiot getting sucked into this again. It's going to be a long week of long sleeves, odd behaviour and excuses like "I tripped and grazed the middle of my forearm and chest." who. am. i. kidding. Anyways I'm so bored so I'm gonna do these:

Phone Quiz

1. What is your current ringtone? S Club Juniors- One Step Closer
2. What is your current wallpaper? My Dog
3. Do you own a picture phone? Yes
4. If so, what was the last picture you took? A photo of myself dressed as Harry Potter
5. Go to your text message inbox and type what the 10th text message says? Ok
6. How many contacts do you have on your phone? 30
8. Who was the last person you spoke to on your cell phone? Danielle
9. What service do you have? Virgin Media
10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service? 5
11. Who’s on your speed dial numbers? I have no speed dial no.
12. Do you have voicemail? Yeah
13. How many contacts that start with the letter J do you have and who are they? Jake, Jenni & Josh
14. Who do you call the most? My dad
15. How many text messages do you get a month? On the tariff? 300 From other people? I have no idea :P
16. Can you send pictures? I think I can :L
17. What are the first 2 digits to your number? 07
18. Go to your sent texts…what does the first one say? What timee will you be in Neath for Dan to meet you?x
19. What about the 10th? I can't go up the Gnoll with you I'm busy sorry xx
20. Who’s the last person that you called? My mum
22. Last person that texted you? My dad
23. Last person you added to your contacts? My sister's number
24. How many minutes are on your plan? 100
25. Go down to your 5th contact, who is it? Dani
26. Wanna give out your number? Nope :L

110. My last name: Hughes

109. I was born in: Neath Hospial

108. I am really:tired

107. My phone is: lovely

106. My eye color is:denimn blue

105. My ring size is:what?

104. My height is:tallish

103. I am allergic to:nothing

102. I was born on: 19th March

101. I am annoyed by:many things :L

100: What happened to question 189???

99. My bed is: squishy & warm

98: One thing you don’t like about yourself: stomach, thighs, back, upperarm

97. Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?side, facing the wall, pillow behind me

96. How do you prevent anger? clench my fists, breath deeply, bite my bottom lip

95. you woke up this morning feeling?tired

94. Do you get along with guys or girls better? guys

93. How do you think you look right this moment?really tired

92. Last person you went to the movies with?heather, rhys & owen

91. My favorite Holiday is: halloween :D

90. The last CD I bought was? Michael Buble

89. Do you have any siblings?yes, 2 brothers and a sister

88. What did you do yesterday?nothing xD

87. When in doubt?listen to your heart

I Do /Do Not Believe In

86. Love at first sight?yes

85. Luck?yes

84. Fate?yes

83. Aliens?:maybe

82. Heaven? the fact that there is a heaven may comfort some people but i don't believe there is one

81. Hell?:I like to believe the murderers & rapists shall burn there for all eternity :)

80. Ghosts?I think when you die you are left with unfinished business

79. Horoscopes?: some are true some are not

78. Soulmates?:i think there is someone perfect for everyone out there but i want someone who likes different things, has different views and opinions because other wise i'll get bored

77. Karma?what goes around comes around

Which is Better? 

76. Drunk or High?drunk :)

75. On the phone or online:both, but i use online more

74. Red heads or blondes?red heads

73. Blondes or Brunettes?brunettes

72. Hot or cold?:cold

71. Summer or Winter:winter

70. Chocolate or vanilla?chocolate

69. Night or Day?:night

68. Oranges or Apples?:oranges

67. Curly or Straight hair:?curly

Here’s What I Think About

66. Abortion:depends on the situation, personally i couldn't bring myself to kill a child no matter if it is just "a bunch of cells"

65. Backstabbers:everyone's a back stabber, i know i am

64. Parents:can't live with them, it'll kill me to live without them

Last time I

63. hugged someone:earlier

62. Saw someone:bout 3 hours ago

61: Cried in front of someone?long time ago

Random

60. Who is the ditziest person you know?:Lucy

59. Who makes you laugh?Jake

58. Last show you watched?Being Human

57. What you don’t understand is? I'm such a horrible person

56. The most unsatisfying answer?I dunno or kk or lol

55. Something I really miss when I leave home is?my mammy, my daddy, my dog & my friends

54. The thing I’m looking forward to the most is? Growing up and having a family

53. Tomorrow:will be long

52. Today:is in the past

51. Next Summer:will be eventful

50. This Weekend:will be fun

49. The person(s) who knows the most about me is:heather, emily & dani

48. The most difficult thing to do is?let go of someone you love

47. I haven’t gotten a speeding ticket:because i am 15

46. The first person I talked to today was :my mum

45. First time you had a crush:4 years ago

44. The one person who I can’t hide things from:heather & maybe dani

43. Last time someone said something you were thinking:i say what i'm thinking all the time :)

42. Right now I am talking to?no one it's 2am

41. What is your dream job?a children's author

40. First job?never had one

39. I have had these pets:one dog, two cats and a rat

38. I still can't see: why he chose her?

37. The worst sound in the world is?screaming, crying

36. The person who makes me cry the most:him, and the skank he went out with

35. Best sound in the world?:laughing, his voice, his laugh

34. Who makes you happy?heeee does(a)

33. Cats or dogs?: dogs :)

32. Myspace or Facebook: facebook

31. Mexican food or Chinese?chinese

30. My favorite piece of clothing?big hoodie, big old yello jacket, red long sleeve top

29. My favorite color(s) are:baby blue, lavender, peach

28. Last time I cried:earlier on

27. My friends:are too good for me

26. My computer is?slow, my laptop is my life(a)

25. Last person I got mad at:myself, him

24. Person you secretly crush on?haha like i'm going to say :P

23. Favorite place to eat?: mcdonalds

22. Favorite song:I still think- Darren Criss

21. The all-time best show is:hmm...dr.who, being human, mock the week, sonny with a chance, icaly..there are more i cannot think :P

20. The all-time best feeling in the world is:when he talks to you and looks into your eyes, when he touches your arm or smiles at you, love

19. Favorite scent: feshly mown grass, lavender, coffee & musk :D

18. What color is your hairbrush:silver & black

17. Favorite shoes: pink cons

16. I lose all respect for people who:lie, cheat, abuse, and bully

15. favorite channel to watch:bbc3 or e4 or dave :)

14. favorite food:my dad's stew

13. favorite day of the week:tuesday

12. Best Feature(s) in the opposite sex:smile, laugh, eyes, ass;)

11. The worst pain I was ever in was:1. when i broke my arm 2. when he broke my heart

10. Best Memory:having a happy, healed family

9. Favorite TV show? been through this :P

8. My favorite singer/band:mr.buble & paramore

7. Favorite Stuffed Animal?my hot water bottle teddie bear

6. Greatest fears:death, being alone

5. My weakness is:my heart

4. When was your last concert?: p!nk

3. Who broke your heart?owen

2. One thing that makes you feel great is:knowing that my husband is walking the earth somewhere

1. One person that you wish you could see right now?my father

Sorry about how long this is I get bored easily and i hate trying to sleep. urgh and i feel like crap :/

I'm Falling to Pieces

Life has been hard for me in the last couple months with my parents and at the beginning of the year I has a spell where I had begun to self harm. I used to burn myself with a lighter in places I could hide and scratch myself until I bled. Thinking back on it now it's sickening but I'm working on it now except the last few weeks has been awful plus I'm stressing about GCSEs and I'm afraid my habit of scratching myself has returned. I now have two marks on my arm where I've scraped away the skin. It's horrible for me to know I think the pain is kinda ..nice. Urgh! haha you probably think i'm some sort of freak now, well i don't disagree with you but good good friends to help me but they've never known about the self-harming and after reading this will most likely avoid me, haha.

But Anyway...
Enough of the depressing stuff the good news is my father who has been living with his brother may be having a flat right here in tonna so that means I can see him all the time :D I am so happy I could cry!!! 

So today I'm revising for my maths exam on tuesday like a good girl. I'm pretty damn bored :P 

Sorry about bumming people out but I've felt all bleugh and needed to express it somewhere. Sorry Xxx

 

Cold Tea & Late nights

Goodmorning campers. It's quarter past three in the morning and I have a freezing cold cup of tea & a couple good fanfictions to keep me entertained :D 
Well I kinda just wanted to say Hi! :D  

Well this is me:) I'm just a normal hormonal, crazy teenage girl. Umm lemmie catch you up on the last 15 years haha.

Well my life was pretty boring, I had lived in Britton Ferry until I was 6 years old. Then in that year I broke my arm in two places and was lucky to still have it today. I still thank those doctors!! & my father was brutally attacked on his wedding anniversary night and suffered brain damage. This of course fuelled our move to Tonna where we moved in next to my mother's parents. Things have been pretty quiet all the way up until 2010. In 2010 my so called best friend stabbed me in the back by going out with the boy that I (still do) adore. It wasn't that great watching them make out on my couch on my birthday put it that way. But not only that after the terrible strain of having to go through that & although my relationship with that guy is again becoming stronger by parents dropped the bombshell that they are getting a divorce. This of course shell shocked me. My father has since left and is claimed to get a two bedroom flat so my brother Daniel and myself can visit him but I am contemplating taking a permenant position with him. So that's basically my life so far haha.
But I don't regret any of those things happening as without them I could not have gotten to the place I am today, with my real friends around me for support :D 

I am an open person. I love meeting new people & feel free to talk to me anytime. Watch this space!!! Xxx